Light Reading?

So I'm reading my book, Did I Kiss Marriage Goodbye? again. I wasn't going to read much of it tonight. I went to the chapel to play piano and pulled out my book of "Pride and Prejudice" music. It made me want to watch the movie. But then I thought about how I would most likely be desiring a relationship like that by the end of it, so I decided to dig deeper into what I thought was slightly depressing. But like I said yesterday, I think God is trying to tell me something. I got to a point in the book talking about the parable of the talents in Matthew 25:14-30. I'll let you find it in your Bible.

This is the part that stuck out to me in the book.

"The third servant had a low view of his master--and perhaps even of what he had received in comparison to the other servants. So he made no effort to multiply his talent. An extended season of singleness can present a similar temptation. We can think that God has given us very little. So we do nothing with it. Despising the 'one talent' of singleness, we don't invest it to have something to show when He returns. We don't try to multiply what He's bestowed; we ungratefully just put it in a hole in the ground and sit down and have a pity party" (McCulley, 2004).

While I was playing piano I started thinking of all of the things that would be happening within the next three months. At the of January I'm going on a leadership retreat for a weekend. I'm kind of nervous about it. I don't see myself as a very good leader. As I started thinking about this more and more, I came to the conclusion that my communication skills are majorly lacking. I am so awkward with people simply because I don't want to talk. I'm not a talker and never have been. And when I find myself talking, it seems to be over useless things that I care nothing for. But I think I decided that you don't have to be a talker to be a good leader. You do need to have good communication skills, however, as your team will rely on you to instruct them. How are you to do that if you don't communicate well? God has blessed people with the ability to communicate and talk fluently, but just because I might not have received that talent like those around me have, I shouldn't "burry it in the ground" and wallow in my insecurity.

Anyway, if God has planted some epic leadership style inside of, I'm hoping this retreat will water it so that it will grow into something glorifying to Him and that I will use it to fulfill His purpose for my life. Who knows, maybe my communication skills will sprout too.

And just because, here is the song I was trying to play tonight.



I need to practice...a lot.