"Idleness appears as desire for a quiet life; yet can rest be assured apart from the Lord?" ~St. Augustine

Life has been crazy lately. At the beginning of this week I thought I was going to die from all the work I had to do. I had a quiz Monday, a quiz Tuesday, a speech Wednesday, and a Physiology test Thursday. It was more than I had signed up for. I cried myself to sleep Monday night after having a 13 hour day of classes and work. I refused to do any homework because I simply could not function from the thought of it all. My head felt like it was splitting and all I wanted was to go home and stay there forever. I missed my nice little quiet life on the farm. I missed having time to go outside and walk around just for the pleasure of it. I missed having time to actually have a conversation with someone I cared about. Suddenly it seemed like the only thing I had time to do was study, and barely that.
I am only taking 18 credit hours and only have an average of 19 hours of work each week. I know I should have time in the hours besides class and work to sit down and relax, but I couldn't find any. I had spent the entire weekend studying and doing homework for the week, and was thoroughly exhausted from it.
Where did my easy life go, and why did it leave me?
Monday ended, and Tuesday didn't start much better. I found consolation in one of my nursing buddies who was going through the exact same thing. Neither of us had time for anything and were exhausted and overwhelmed from it all. We tried to encourage each other and were reminded that God has it all in control. He will see us through it, even if we die in the process.
Now that it's the end of the week, I am preparing myself for a presentation on Monday and various homework projects. My presentation is on St. Augustine and as I was reading his book "Confessions" this evening, I read this line by him, "Idleness appears as a desire for a quiet life; yet can this be assured apart from the Lord?". Life on earth is not easy and it never will be. We are called to suffer it for the Lord's sake and when he is ready he will take us out of it. I often envy people who are able to sleep in on weekdays and spend the entire day at home with their families. But God has a plan for me here at CofO. It's not going to be easy, but His plan will be accomplished through it. At the beginning of this week I was reminded of how low a person can get in their self pity. I am here for God's glory, not for mine.

"Carpe diem baby, Carpe diem. Seize the freakin' day!"

I set my laptop down in front of my physiology book so I wouldn't have to look at a phospholipid bilayer anymore. I've decided that you can definitely read to much physiology. Homework has already become a little overwhelming.
Blogging was definitely not on my list of things to do this weekend, but I thought I'd add it to the list while I needed a break from physiology. Dr. Miller would be ashamed.

Today I realized that I haven't gone to play piano in almost a month. It makes me sad to think that. I honestly have had no time to do anything lately, but I also realize that I probably don't prioritize my time as I should. I think I'll go play piano tonight just so it won't be a month.

My sister and I have chalk boards on our walls and they are slowly filling up with quotes. The title of this post is one of those quotes. Emma was going on about something last night and this title was a major point in her argument. As was, "Boys are stupid. Throw rock at them!" We have fun at CofO.